I remember when my friend and I were in Homesense and looking for random things. I was walking in the Christmas tree area. I am not planning to buy a new little Christmas tree, but this one golden Christmas tree caught my attention. I quickly grabbed it and looked at it. I just thought it was pretty. I checked the price, and it was on a red tag, which means it is on sale. I wonder why that little vase was on sale (she looks stunning and full of golden glitter). I just thought it was a great deal. I was holding this golden little vase, staring at it because I was still overwhelmed by its price. At this point, I am deciding whether I will buy it or not.
Suddenly, I discovered a crack that looked like a V shape that you would not notice quickly if you were not checking on it. The crack was so perfect that it looked like it was part of the design. I am standing between the shelves full of various designs of Christmas trees, trying to find a vase that looks the same as this golden pot. I wanted to take the one that didn’t have crack. I looked in every area, and unfortunately, I found nothing. With all of this Christmas tree thing, know then in my heart, God is initiating a conversation with me.
And it goes like this….
“You know what, daughter? That vase is just like you; you are different from everybody.
You are unique. You are rare and hard to find.
Daughter..
No matter what season you are going through.
No matter how complex that healing process is.
No matter how difficult it is to understand the situation.
No matter how many questions you have in mind.
No matter what kind of healing you have to endure.
No matter how messed up you think your life is right now.
I am here, willing to take you on this journey. I am here as your Father—accepting every part of you, every flaw. The crack that was in that vase, that’s the void that you can only find in me. The broken part of your heart, daughter, it is only me who can fix and mend it.
Just like how you chose to buy & see the beauty of that Golden Christmas tree. It is the same thing with me: you are chosen and set apart. You are my daughter, whom I dearly love.
Those days and nights of your life were full of anxiety and discomfort. I want you to know I have seen your anguished heart.
I see the beauty in your teary eyes.
I see the beauty in your pain.
I see the beauty in your heart.
I see the beauty in every part of you.
The same thing happened with what you wanted to happen—which is bringing this beautiful golden tree with you. I also want that for you; I want you to be with me no matter how many cracks you’ve been through. I will always be with you, gluing every crack within you and loving every tiny part of you”.
Oh, what a great conversation with the Lord, so I went in the cashier, and the lady said.. oh this is broken. Would you still want to take it? I said yes, I would still take it. I don’t want her to be left out in the bunch of Christmas trees, and I laugh… her face was confused. Maybe she’s thinking, “This lady is weird. How come she wants to buy this vase, which is already broken?” She started wrapping it with paper. Eventually, I said thank you, and we said goodbye to each other.
Know that…
God is loving and kind and will always be your constant through highs and lows. He will always speak to you in the little details of life and let you know that you are the beauty of this season. God is cultivating every part of the garden in your heart, even if it takes courage to endure the pain. God is so sweet and gentle. He will pursue you all the days of your life.
“Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalms 23:6 NLT
THIS IS THE PROMISE I AM WILLING TO KEEP FOREVER. ❣️
It is a simple realization that the vase was me— broken, left out, not chosen and unlovable. I do not deserve anything from this world, but because of the love of Jesus, I got saved. His grace is amazing. He died for me. He carried the weight I should have carried. He endures the pain I should have endured. He gave me the gift of life, salvation, healing, peace and the gift of reconciliation and redemption. He frees us from the bondage of sin only by His grace through faith.
"He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed." 1 Peter 2:24 NLT
Why do you think God did all of this thing?
He did all these things because HE LOVES US DEARLY and wants the best for us. Jesus died for me, for you and for everybody to rescue us. God is loving and trustworthy.
God chose us and saved us not because we are loving and kind; God saved us because we are unlovable and unkind. He knows that we need love the most. That’s why he chose to die on the cross and save us. We are bought at a price that no one could ever pay for.
"My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me." Galatians 2:20 NLT
If you are looking for a miracle at this point. God already gave you that miracle 2,000-plus years ago. It is finished. Rest assured that everything is in control.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.“The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.” Lamentation 3:22-24
GOD IS MERCIFUL AND GRACIOUS
God is merciful; we don’t get to receive what we deserve, we don’t get to receive punishment for what we’ve earned.
God is gracious; You get to receive what you have not earned and do not deserve. God’s grace is a blessing. It is above and beyond measure, more than you could imagine. Isn’t it wonderful? Jesus is so gracious. God’s grace is undeserving, but He still gave it to everyone. It makes me cry whenever I think about His mercy and grace.
“We understand grace the most when we deserve it at the least.” -Sheila Walsh.
His grace is enough and will always be sufficient until the end of time. 💝
Love,
Charisse 👸🏻
My eyes are teary while reading your blog, as it touches deep side my heart.
Take care always and God bless Charisse☺️